Dear Redegg,

I hear you....
I was diagnosed MDD about 11 years ago. I guess the two best things I could point out is that 'situational depression' is something that almost everyone goes through at timed over deaths, losses, major life changes etc.
But diagnosed depression like this is a Chemical Imbalance in the brain. It needs to be treated by a proper doctor and a good therapist.

Therapy actually changes the brain's chemistry as well and creates new neurological pathways to create different responses in thoughts, emotions and behaviours. The meds often take weeks or months to properly build in the system and help out. The therapy helps to explain some of your reactions and anger and helps you to self-soothe when you get too overwhelmed....

Friends and family are great, but 90% of them truly won't understand...it is best to talk to professionals and peer groups of others trying to get better like you. It does take patience which I know is in short supply.

Try to be kind to yourself...
Coming here and reading and learning are a great start....
-WB