Redegg, your post describes my life and my battle with depression to a T. I am so sorry you are going thru this pain but know you are not the only one. Yes, little things can push me down an emotional ladder to rock bottom as well. Sometimes it is something somebody says or the way they say it. I dread going to work as I deal with this mess at work everyday. Other people do not understand unless they are suffering depression. They will tell you to "just be happy". You can't just force yourself to be happy. I get angry at my depression, angry at myself, angry at others who don't understand. I try not to express that anger but it is there. The way you feel describes my daily life. I completely understand. Keep posting to us and hang in there.