JeffPowers, I understand how difficult this must be for you and the feelings and emotions of it all can maybe cloud your mind when trying to reconcile all that happened. This is a good time for you to be introspective with yourself and try to see if your feelings for her were impeding her ability to help you with your transference issues and your ability to understand or accept what she was trying to help you with.

I say this because your T gave you ample warning of termination. Four months seems like a lot of time for the both of you to try to come to a conclusion within your sessions and for her to try to help you move on to your next step and another T.

Again, I understand how you may be feeling. I also think that by seeing another T that you have no transference issues with, can be extremely helpful to you in moving past the emotions and to start seeing things more clearly.

I wish you the best as you move forward. While moving forward may be difficult and painful, it also has it's most wonderful rewards!