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Sometimes new and different can be so refreshing. We tend to get in a rut with the kinds of guys we like, so then we get in the same dead end relationships over and over again. At least thats how its worked for me.

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I don't know how I missed your previous post. I was on here last night, but I didn't even see it.

You and I are in the same boat when it comes to getting stuck in a rut. That's why I'm trying something new and different. I DO know what's good for me and what's not good for me in a relationship, but I've almost always ended up with the same kind of guy -- very social and moody and dramatic and intense and needy and possessive. I found my ex-boyfriend infinitely fascinating and exciting -- the whole tortured artist thing -- but I'm getting older now. I have realized that I want to have children someday (and I'm 37 already - YIKES!) and I want to be with someone who has some stability in their life. Someone who has their head in the clouds all the time isn't a good match for me. My ex is a musician (soundtrack composer, songwriter, musician, producer, etc.). He is successful in his career but he will never be practical and realtistic and his life and emotions will never be stable. I can't imagine him being a father. I found the drama with him kind of addictive. It was also fun that women go ga-ga over him when he's on-stage, but he picked me (so it was good for my ego), but being with him and dealing with his moods and his jealousy were emotionally exhausting.

I have tended to go for guys who have similar personalities to mine but are more EXTREME versions of me, and that's not a good thing. I need someone who's a bit more down-to-earth. I wasn't instantly physically attracted to the guy I'm interested in now -- and that's new. I usually go for guys who I find YUMMY at first sight. This guy grew on me and I found myself becoming attracted to him as I got to know his personality. So, all of this is new and I hope it turns out to be a good thing.

I've rambled on and on. LOL. I tend to do that a lot. I'm wordy.

I totally know where you're coming from with this quote: "Ever had that happen where even things you don't like about someone just makes your feelings that much stronger?"

I know exactly what you mean about that. It has turned out to be destructive for me in the past, so I'm TRYING to change my ways.