Thank you Alison.

Will see what happens tomorrow. Will go to work and just try to be normal... People kind of see me as a bit 'quirky' (guess that's the best word for it), so me putting my ear phones in and listening to music while I do some admin stuff won't be unusual.

Was a bit of a god send after my last posts... Some online friends from a game I used to play asked me to get on team speak to play another game... Not spoken to them in months so it was both a surprise and welcome escape... Just shooting the crap with them and listening to the jokes and banter.

Probably a mistake, but also drunk some whiskey, and just let myself get a bit drunk... Got me comfortably numb. Might regret it in the morning but sod it... I just wanted some escape for a little bit.