I have to wait for wednesday for my pdoc appointment.then I can get my meds increased.I am feeling so fogged up right now life is like a foggy window I can see some things outside but I cant make out the full picture right now I dont know if its the meds making me feel this way but I am also feeling very depressed I still keep having visions of setting myself on fire or jabbing out one of my eyes cutting off my fingertips or my tongue carving the skin off my face.I cant get these horrible thoughts out of my mind but I dont think I will ever act on them.