First off i would like to thank everyone who read and replied to my post in depression forum. Thank you so much, i have never been through anything like this and i am so glad that i can come here and get the support i need. You guys have become so much like a family to me. I have an appointment on friday with a counselor. I am not going through insurance so i am having to pay for it myself. Its okay cause the lady understands so she is only charging me 40 dollars a session. I got a phone call from my friend today, he sounded so much better. i started crying on the phone to him. He told me was sorry and that he loved me and that he wants to see me soon. so i think next weekend i am going to his home and visit. He said that he was glad i was there and that he was sorry again. When it was time to hang up i didn't want to get off the phone, i kept saying i loved him and talk to him soon, and all this i didn't want to hang up. i guess i thought i might not hear from him again, but it was good to hear from him. As soon as we hung up i wanted to call him back just to make sure it was real that i really did hear his voice and that he is trying to get better.
well i have to go, but again thank you everyone, i will still post often, i leave for florida (Walt Disney World Internship) in 20 days.

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