On the good note, I loved going to church today. I help out in a ministry in our church There was love, joy, worship, fellowship, and sweet peace there. I enjoyed serving my people. It was wonderful. I even found myself smiling for a change. I wish everyday could be Sunday. On the bad side I am dreading going to work tomorrow. I totally lost my composure there on Friday. I had a total nervous breakdown and started crying uncontrollably. I have this constant bad feeling that many people there are out to get me personally. Complete paranoia. In my logical mind I know this is not true. But I no longer function with a logical mind. Feelings take over logic.