we all want to be normal. and we have to work on what our definition of "normal" is and how we fit with it. there are times when i'm not sure that i remember "normal".....i would like my joy back.

i understand your feelings of despair. if you're like me, you'd like to have some time where you aren't thinking about your head. i'm sick of my head.

med changes suck. i've been on the same thing now for about 5 months and doing fairly well. but if something seems off i start worrying about my meds..... i think we create, for ourselves, some pretty self-defeating cycles. i find it hard to break myself of that.

do you see a therapist? IRL support is very important. i get to start therapy in about 10 days. i'm very excited that i'll have someone to talk to......

let me know how you're doing. xoxoxo pat