I don't know if this is okay to post here, I'm sorry if it's not.

Anyway, back about 3 or more years ago (I just know in the past 7 years for sure), my husband had sex with me while I was sleeping. I woke up during it, but didn't know what to do, so I pretended I was still a sleep until he finished. When I confronted him about it he told me he did it to see if he could get away with it, and that it was only that one time. He won't let me bring it back up, so I've never told anyone until last month when I told my therapist. Together we haven't put an actual word to it..."Marital rape", "Sexual Abuse"? I refer to it as the "Incident".

He hasn't done it since, but I still can't get over what he did. He continues to touch me while I'm sleeping a lot, which angers me even more. Sex isn't the same anymore, partly because of my endometriosis and part from thinking of this.

I don't know what to do, leaving him isn't an option right now. I feel like maybe I'm over reacting. Any advice or support would be great.