Jan my mom mentally and physically abused me all my life. My christian upbringing taught me to "honor thy mother and father". I found it so very difficult to honor such a person. I was also taught that as long as there was breath there was hope. When she got sick I was the first one she called on. her favorite child lived maybe 10 miles from her. I lived 200 miles away. I did everything I could for her always. She died mad at me. You know what? I can thank her today because of her bad treatment of me I became a very caring person. You are a wonderful human being. Very loving. You are doing all you can do for her. When her time comes you will be as gracious as always and feel better about yourself too. Never let anyone put you down. I will be here to build you up as will others here. WE love you