Yes, i can relate. And yes, i know why - because my mother wasnt interested in me, and barely talked to me. She did interact with my older brother.

I used to get my French homework done in that ten minutes at the end of class - that was the only class we had that chat period. But i remember being too shy to ask for a turn on the swings in 1st and 2nd grade.

Im getting better about "why interact" and "what is a party" the more i connect with my current t. I admit, i just did not get it before. It seemed like too much effort and it just caused pain.