I expect my illness will backfire...

and destroy me...

yes I am paranoid ridiculous!

I feel things from all directions...

and yet!

sometimes it's family love that rips my illness away and tells me to love today!

my poor little sister has cancer and between me finding out and her surgery is just 2 days...

in these moments I am not mentally ill!...

I am a brother indestructible...

...and I discover I am always this way...

yes I am sick I am terrible sick.....

but love conquers all...

she needs me at this time...

and I can do that!