why do I keep having these horrible things run through my mind?sometimes they make so much sense that I make up reasons why I need to act upon them.like cutting my eyelids off or carving my skin off my face or setting my hair and my clothes on fire or cutting off a finger.they seem to make so much sense at the moment but seem so insane later when I think back.sometimes I want to carve every word going through my head into my flesh all over my body.I dont know what to do it sounds so horrible am I a horrible person for wanting to do these things to myself?