I feel I am still over my depression, but this weekend was bad for me that I realized that I am bored. I didn't know what to do. I started to read about being bored. There was an article that said being bored is a sign of depression. I don't feel that depression I had. I guess most of my time was taken by depression and I was doing what I needed to take care of depression or going through the process of that feeling and that took a lot of time. Now that I don't have it, I am able to see how bored I am or that I have no interest. Sure, I could of done things like clean, watched tv or read but I had no desire for it. I think it might be that I have no purpose in life. The purpose and dreams that I had were taken away from me hence one of the onset of depression.

I tried to bring purpose and dreams back again during the process of healing from depression, but nothing would come to me. So that I don't feel the depression, now I get to feel that void that I didn't create. At one point, I tried to accept my life as it is.

I guess, it is now time for me to figure out what I enjoy. I used to enjoy that I was in the artistic field. I identified myself with that going to art HS and college and then working in the field. I don't identify myself like that anymore.

Also the websites I read talked about having exciting things that you once did and what you are doing now isn't so. That is partly true that I lived in NY before and now, I'm in Texas and I can't do much. I can't go out freely so I guess, I have to figure out what to do that will keep my interested internally if that makes sense.

I really don't want this feeling to lead me towards depression because I can't come up with something to occupy my time on this earth.