JaneC~ you are not alone. I have a great therapist but we haven't touched anything that should be bothering me and I don't even know if I can get to her office again and my mountains aren't even in view.

I can't grasp the concept of not being worthy of your friends. Every decent person has something to contribute to the relationship and decency isn't based on what others think of us or have done to us.

I do wish I had some words of wisdom for you but I'm so deep in my own BS without a way out that I'd give you the wrong directions.

It sounds like even the good in your life is stressing you but I hear they are good stressors. I don't believe it but that's what I hear.

Best of luck at your interview.

I read this and started singing this tune.

"Well I'd hope that since we're here anyway
That we could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up staying
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Let's rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a Hollywood horror