Remember that we as living Humans have been given Dominion over Evil. You are in charge. If you ask God to be in charge of your life, then this puts YOU in domination over the Ugliness which would have you do as It wishes. What you say is what goes. If you ask what it wants It will probably tell you somehow, but I don't think it will ask you for anything nice. Most of the advice you got was collectively very good. Remember also that if you kick it out, but don't replace the Ugly with something Good then it or something else Ugly may return to replace it. I have never been hallucinatory. I believe you!! Hugs and support!! I know what it's like to have people not believe you, even though you know yourself very well. Many cultures both past and present believe in a Spiritual World beyond our physical existence. Nobody has the right to say you are wrong for your beliefs or personal experience. Blessings and Best Wishes!!