The effects can be devastating but they do not have to last. It is possible to turn things around. You have survived thus far, it can only get better from here.

In a similar situation once, I first started with therapy and medication, which is not the choice for everyone but they were the steps that helped me get back on my feet to make sounder decisions and to be more stable. It also helped me to figure out what I wanted to be doing with my personal goals, careerwise, and get on track with family and friends as had alienated most everyone.

The most important thing that struck a chord with me during this initial period and throughout was that I needed to be the change I wanted to see in my life, to find what I am looking for that is right for me letting go of others' expectations, and know no matter what if I do this, it will happen. Do nothing, expect nothing, because it will all stay the same.

I wish you all the best as you find not only what helps but what works best for you as you move forward. Take good care of you in the process, seek those (providers, treatment, support networks) that will help as they are out there, and know no matter what happens, you do have the courage and strength to do it. You have already shown how much have by coming this far, draw on it and use the time to regroup to take care of you.