redegg, you are not alone. I've been in a severe depression for almost 10 months now and am very angry that I have to endure this while the majority of the population will never experience clinical depression. It seems very unfair that my life has to be so difficult while the majority just sail off into the sunset.
I'm angry about what depression has robbed me of: waking up in the morning and actually wanting to get out of bed, or getting up when I wake up instead of waiting for hours, just lying there. It's robbed me of my ability to enjoy life - - particularly evenings since I go in my bed at 5 p.m. every day - - even though I don't take my nighttime meds until 9 p.m.!
Damn right I'm angry about it. Get angry with myself too, even though I know this depression isn't my fault. It's a chemical imbalance.
Sorry to have ranted in your thread, but this theme really touched a chord with me. Thanks for posting about anger and depression.
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