I can understand that piggy....but you are only human. We all make mistakes, but what sets each of us apart is how we recover from.
It may be awkward the first time you have communication, but it will get better after. One of my motto's is "Prepare for the worst and hope for the best!" 99% of the time, the worst doesn't happen....heck you might even be pleasantly surprised
((((((hugs)))))
J