My major issue is that despite doing pretty well on life's milestones (job, apartment, loving relationship) I still feel real hollow inside, and while I do plan for the long term, I feel that I'm just going through the motions (which is something that happens when I interact with people in general).

What I would like help with is on specific (to me) guidance. While I do have professional help, their expertise doesn't really help at the moment since their efficiency relies on a level of personal introspection that I find myself less and less capable of managing, resulting in no one knowing how to proceed after crisis needs are taken care of.

To that end:
What background information do I need to give in order to facilitate a constructive response? I have no clue. I feel that I don't have enough background information but I don't know what to give.
Are there any troubling "vibes" or undercurrents present in the language of this post that are particularly troubling?