SC,

I wanted to respond to your post before I got to bed, but if I totally misconstrue something, please forgive me, I am half asleep already... very long day.

It sounds like you are trying to get a grasp on what fb's and body memories "are". For me, without a lot of reading and self education, I simply didn't realize that stuff I experienced even fit into those categories. I thought that either 1) everyone had these experiences and feelings 2) I was just bad or weird.

I did a lot of reality testing... mostly on line at first... posting about what I experienced and getting feedback. I sort of pieced together stuff, became more aware of triggers, etc. An ongoing process.

Well, I hope this is an ok response... going to crawl off to bed now. I will check back in the am.

Have a peaceful night. M