Hugs to you. You are strong that you keep trying. So keep trying. One day it will lift. It's hard, but there is still something in you that is beyond the depression because you had a boyfriend and friends. You are going through hard times, but it's still in there. Keep trying. Try to see one little thing that is good and beautiful. It may not look like it or feel like it and maybe it'll be foggy, but somehow putting that little thought inside might help. I used to do that and even though I didn't feel that great, I told myself that is something good and one day I'm going to feel it. I hope that helps and you will be better soon.