Jane, right now where you are in your healing, "yes", it does feel like self belief is impossible, but I promise you, it is not impossible and as you continue to work through addressing these doors and whatever is in them, you will slowly make gains towards that "self belief" again, or really for the first time, because before you didn't really have it and those doors will show you that but you will also learn that it was not your fault too. And you will have quite a few good long cries about that too, I know I have and I also know other's have too. However, that is how you finally do deserve to "grieve" and you will come to realize that at some point too.

Jane, you are not alone with that challenge and thankfully you have a way to reach out and meet others that can relate, that a T is there to help you and as all of us "talk" and share, much will be learned that will be very important to humanity as a whole.

So, be patient, and the light at the end of the tunnel will come, and it gets rough at times, yes I do hear that, me too. I promise you will make gains on this, and I cannot say enough how important self care and patience is while you are working at it. Yes, there will be times when others will not understand, but eventually that will change because we really are on a presuppose of recognizing this as a society, we really are. We are pioneers as we share this challenge and speak up, as our study of the human brain brings us more knowledge than ever before, and this will all be something that will be realized to where important changes in our society will take place. We are slowly beginning to see that happen too.

I promise, it will get better, patience, self care, and T and support here when you need it will help you greatly. You are not alone Jane, you really aren't.

((Caring Hugs)))
OE