Zwangsstörung - Last time we hung out we had sushi and then watched Hannibal (the TV show). We texted as usual for three days after that. The last text I got from him before this began was a smiling winkey face and how he was on his way home after work.

He's never been the cheating type and he's always been a really nice guy. But I guess a lot can change in 1.5 years..

ace333 - Well I've had a boyfriend and have dated, too, since we broke up. The hard part is that I -had- moved on for the most part but was still kind've hopeful. In a way that if I didn't ever see him again, I was ok with that but if we did reconnect, it'd be awesome. So the fact that we saw each other again and things were great and then this happened.. it's so incredibly painful.

healingme4me - I'm still trying to find a therapist that accepts Medicare. My old therapist I had when I still had insurance doesn't. I have no friends, no one to talk to which is why I've turned to coming online because at least this is SOMEthing. The thing is that I would react the same way, tho maybe not as extreme, if he had been anyone else. I can't stand being ignored and someone acting as if I don't exist because a lot of the time I wonder if anyone would miss me and the fact that someone is basically telling me that no, they wouldn't miss me is confirming the fact that I'd be better off just gone.

It'd be different if he had just told me to "eff off". Or told me ANYthing. Then I could deal with things. But to just.. have everything fine and this happen.. it's just too much. It's just another thing to add to the pile of reasons I just DON'T want to be here anymore. I can't handle these things happening to me anymore. I literally have NOTHING.