I've haven't cut in several years but I still have urges. I've done a lot of other self hurt things to myself. It's pains my heart just to say that. I can be so mean to me and that knowledge hurts too.

Sometimes I hurt so much I hit, slap, pinch, some other things. These are fairly tame methods to soothe the hurts that I have. I'm proud I haven't cut but resisting the urge ain't for sissies, it's tough business.