'Ello.

I can relate, you certainly are alone. I'm coming up on 30 in a couple of days and am single, living with family (who are ill themselves) and on SSDI. I'm not even sure where my days go anymore. As suggested in the first comment, I've been trying to make plans to get back out on my own and do something - even if it's volunteering - but it's still really difficult. And a lot of the motivation is shallow I'll admit - I don't care about myself enough to be motivated for me, so I imagine myself finding a partner again after I get my **** together. It's really not a good path to go, wouldn't recommend it. Try to find reasons for improvement that have to do with you and you alone, not dependent on another unknown person.

Overcoming illness isn't always just as easy as "doing it" so try not to let it get you down too much. You still have time and maybe will find a better medication/treatment combo in the future that helps you find your way out of the situation. I will agree with that first comment in the sense that it's good to start thinking about and fleshing out a plan to get yourself back "out there" even if you can't put it into action right away.