I know the feeling of being too embarrassed to talk about obsessive thoughts. I was convinced i was becoming homosexual after a gay guy hit on me, and i was too embarrassed to talk to anybody about it. I told my pdoc and she was the first person to say that i had ocd. My mom, whose brother was gay, told me that i wasn't gay and that i needed to stop drinking and let the Zoloft start working.

I also became obsessed that I was going to hell for blasphemy of the Holy Spirit. I was scared out of my mind to talk to a Priest about it because I was convinced he'd confirm that i was going to hell. But when i did talk to a Priest he told me that i hadn't done anything wrong.

In essence, your fears of pedophilia are related to OCD, not reality.