Hey everyone,

I was just wondering something, I often read that most people with BPD can't controle their anger and suddenly hate people for something really small... I don't have that. I have the opposite. I am not capable of being angry at someone.
At rare times I really feel angry inside, and I can vow never to talk to them again and I don't want to be their friend anymore, but as soon as that person talks to me again, or does something nice I immediately forgive everything. Even if they truly don't deserve it: I'm the biggest pushover EVER.
(Except when I have a serious relationship, then I can be a monster...)

Also, whenever someone reacts a bit harsh or rude to me, I always think I've done something wrong and it's my fault and I should never talk to hem again because they obviously don't like me. I just turn really silent or I completely hide how much their reaction hurt me. No angry outbursts, just me being sure I'm not worthy of their time and I should just leave everyone alone, because why would they want to be friends with me?

Can anyone relate to this?