The journey continues...

With the support of my "new" T (since Dec), I gave up binging on sugar foods about 7 days ago - and gave up pretty much all food with sugar in it - with the exception of multi-grain bread..

I went thru the withdrawl... still going thru it...

I post this in the hopes that this might help someone else - we are all so different - in the why's and how's of our eating disorders -

anyway, a while back we discovered that I binge to numb terrible pain...

So, I decided to take on the pain.. and gave up binging.

The next step of my journey has always been to gradually - over about a month period of time - to give up eating all together - sometimes it lands me in my doctors - cause of the dehydration and such..

It was amazing,,,,, for me.... friday.. when the T and I discussed this "thing" that happens.

He hit the nail on the head for me (probably only me) - that I give up eating cause of extreme depression..

That was very interesting... and after thought, I realized it was true...

I was explaining to him that I can eat only a limited number of foods (my digestive system goes haywire) - anyway
even if I could eat anything - it wouldn't matter....I still wouldn't...

Not sure where I'm going with this realization in my life yet -

The journey... continues....