newgal2 my depressive episodes have been known to last that long too. It sucks, but the nature of the beast unfortunately.

Im doing well. Looking after my 17 year old dog today at my parents house. Get to have good internet. Im thinking of going to see if I can get my haircut today, but money is really tight since I havent been paid from work nor got any of my medicare back that I was supposed to. That really pisses me off because I asked for a reciept so I could claim it myself but they insisted it would go straight into my account. And it hasnt, from now 5 therapy appointments and 3 psychiatrist appointments, that is over $1000 owed to me and I have a boatload of bills to pay this week. Just more stress to ring up and try to fix it all now. So annoying.

Rumination has already started today. I cant pick why some days it is worse than others besides blaming it on hormones. That is frustrating as I like to challenge myself and I cant really challenge hormones...

Big day at work tomorrow, but I am looking forward to it. I really need to ride my horse but its been so hard to keep myself stable as well as push myself to do even more, one thing at a time. I hope the riding will come back to me when my hormones level out.