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Originally Posted by Frankbtl
Hi TJ, NEVER apologize for anything you post on here about your feelings!!
They matter, you matter!!
And you know there's nothing at all to be ashamed about at all in what you're feeling, in fact you may well have helped other people open up a bit more about how they're feeling just by putting it out there. And I KNOW you're a really empathetic, caring, non-judgmental person from your replies to others!! So a little more of that to yourself, hey??!! 
Anyway, you know I think it's absolutely great news about today!! It really is!!!
But if/ whenever you need any support along the way......in fact anytime as things do have their up's and down's, and just starting the journey right (?) - with a very good start though .........we're/I'm here for you.
Alison
P.S. Go give your wife a hug, if you haven't already!! |
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Originally Posted by secretwhisper
I'm glad your T helped today and it's great that she would halve the costs so you can see her weekly hope things start to improve for you soon |
Thank you to the pair of you, those chats were really kind... and though I wasn't thinking straight a lot of the time... it was a god send that you were about at separate times when I was just desperate to talk to someone.
My T re-iterated about trauma work... used the onion analogy tonight and basically indicated that though apparently I have a strong core... the layer just outside of that is a mess. The fundamental stuff that we as kids should develop... the emotional learning... isn't properly developed... and then further outer layers of trauma and trauma and trauma
sob story central but I know we're going to be biting the bullet and work on it.
It scares the **** out of me... but I've promised to do my best to hold on till the 9th of June so we can start the work.
Came home tonight and told the wife and again.... I burst into tears. I very very rarely cry.... so this many times in one night... bloody hell lol. Told her about the grounding activity the T had done... such a simple thing really... tapping each hand gently while I repeat to my self 'I'm ok, I can cope'.
Oh... and my T gave me a hug at the end of session
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