I'm not sure if I posted in the right place. Sorry if I didn't.
My depression has a major hold on me. I'm not sure how to get out of the hole I'm in. It scares me how bad I am. I either sleep all the time or not at all. I cry at the drop of a hat or I anger quickly.
I have always dealt with depression. It's something I fight every day but when I got a divorce almost 2 years ago my world crumbled. I sunk into a hole that I couldn't climb out of. I moved home with my mom and her boyfriend and closer to my family, which was a huge mistake. I stay because I don't have the money to move but it hasn't helped my depression in the least. In their eyes I'm a screw up, black sheep. Nothing I do is right.
There are so many things I'm trying to teach myself, cooking, cleaning, mowing the lawn, riding a bike, crocheting, saving money, being more outgoing. These are things that were never taught to me but are also things that make me stupid or the black sheep for not knowing how to do. I know it isn't all my parents fault because I'm an adult and should know these things but a little help or guidance would be helpful. These things are things that don't help my depression, they are all things I get made fun of for, called stupid for, or whatever. The harder I try to learn the more I'm made fun of. They want me to learn but yet they don't. I am constantly saying I'm sorry because I feel like I'm never enough or doing it right.
I'm still single and that is yet another reason I'm ridiculed. They call me the old maid, the cat lady, the dog lady, even though I'm 29.
My depression is bad and they don't care. They continually tell me to just feel better.
I am currently looking for a counselor in my area but haven't found one. I'm not sure where to look. Any help would be greatly appreciated.