I have battled with eating disorders many times in my life, in fact, ever since I was 7 years old. I am going up and down a rollar coaster constantly and I hate it. I have had anorexia and bulimia nervosa and now I have a funny feeling I am battling binge eating. I have gained almost 55 pds in less than 6 mths and it is worrying me. Lately, however I have had no appetite and it if I do I ignore it, I know this is not a good thing to do, but I am doing it and it is hard to stop. I have no appetite hardley at all and the only time I seem to eat is when my family or my husband Christopher is around or if I get shakey and even then I eat very little due to not being hungry. I am up and down this rollar coaster constantly and I want it to stop, but I am not sure how. I have not told my psychologist due to her putting back in the hospital (maybe) and I do not want that. I have no one else to talk to and I was hoping maybe someone could help. I do do a little bit of exercising, like walking, but not much. When I do eat, I just want to throw it up, but I have made too many promises so I don't and then I sit with the guilt of getting "fatter." Six months ago I was in a size 12 and now I am around the size of about 18 and up and it really bothers me, so I have cut down on my eating all together, which I know is not safe, but I am not sure how else to do it. Someone please help me get over this roller coaster ride. Thank You for your time and patience.
Your one and only Kitten,
Brandi Kathleen "meow"

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