Hi, I can relate to what you describe, except it was in a workplace. I was always continually picked on and laughed at for every little mistake. Anyways long story short, I got out of that oppressive environment. About a counselor, your GP (General Practitioner, your everyday doctor) may be able to help you out in finding one, atleast thats how I met my first therapist and psychiatrist. Anyways, I wish you the best.