I have been going through so much I'm surprised I'm not in bed with the blinds closed. my depression started after a series of events but was has recently triggered my depression to hit it's all time low was the loss of my previous job. since then I have been barely getting by and it's not enough. I went from making more than most people my age and on the path of becoming a major player in the company. went from not having worries of how much something costs, countless trips around the world, and countless things to do to stretching $20 for a couple days and literally applying for any position in businesses in wich I was the guest, not the employee. my confidence is shattered and I have no respect for myself. I just want to be happy and have my old life back. I know dwelling on the past won't help any but it's all that floods my mind. and having come from a successful family and havingcountless friends who are going places, I'm the loser going nowhere now. how can I make myself smile again?