Hello, I am new here and just needing to vent for now. I hope you dont mind.

I have been through the ringer the past 4 years or so. I have been going through an endless divorce (with child) and I have been in this state of purgatory for what seems like forever.

The past two years I have been trying to date as I have a lot of love to give and I have been lonely for way too long. I have been through many relationships in a short period. It seems to always start the same, fast, sweet and fun.

This last relationship was like wow! He came on fast, we had lots of chemistry and he said he fell for me. For me to be prepared for marriage! I was like wow! I told him lets take it slow but I loved it all. Things were going well. Then just one day he broke it all off with a text. Didn't even have the decency to call until I begged him to so he could explain. He did thankfully and said he didnt want a relationship after all that his feelings for me were false.

This last relationship has crushed me and has catapulted me into a deeper depression as I gave my whole heart to him and just to have it crushed in the was it was,, well, it frankly sucked!

I've lost my lust for life. I am so tired these days, I can't even work out like I normally do. And trust which is something that I value... how do I ever trust a mans words again after he told me he loved me and never wanted to hurt me then this??? I am just broken and I dont want to be.

I am on medication and have been for the last three years. I go to a counselor and just started attending a support group. I am proactive with my health but I just feel so stuck in this daily anxiety and depression bouts. I am truly sick of feeling down and want to move on. I feel like I am doing everything I can to move on but nothing seems to work. Anyway, I guess I am just whining..