Now, after a full day at university, then a job interview, grocery shopping.....I am utterly exhausted and still need to face finishing writing an essay on human development due in 2 days. I don't think I can face it, I have not a scrap of energy!

Ugh, my sleep last night was soo broken, jolting awake from dreams that stay briefly then disappear. When I finally woke to face today, I was completely confused and could not figure out where I was, what day it was, why my alarm went, and frankly who I bloody was!! Good way to start the day.

Is it odd that the last 2 nights I have started sleeping with my sons teddy bear that I got for him before he was born and he has slept with every night since? Is that odd? I wake at night clutching this bear like a terrified child....is that weird? Oh I just have to laugh, but can't muster the energy.

Thank you all for the replies, it really helps to not feel so alone, and to know that I can type it our here if I need.

OE I am sorry that you have experienced all that you have, and you are right not one single thing about what you have experienced was OK. It was NOT. I am glad that you now have a T that can support you through your healing and recovery. Big kind hugs to you too

Take care everyone, I know we are all fighting our own battles, so bug to you all too.