Hey everyone...

So I borrowed a toy from my T during the Easter break (he has some shelves of them in his room and I picked one that looks like him) and also took one of his new printed leaflets from reception. It made a huge difference. I went through the break without needing to text or email him at all, which is unheard of.

My T has helped turn these into transitional objects or whatever they're called. He has talked about "the leaflet version of me". I brought the toy back, asked to borrow it again and put it in my bag. He said: "You've got me in your bag." When my T picked the toy up, it really annoyed me that he was touching it. I don't know if it was possessiveness or fear he might take it away.

So I stopped bringing it back. Then I stopped mentioning it, stopped asking to keep borrowing it. It's in a drawer by my bed. It's a Happy Meal toy from 1999 according to the label and I doubt my T cares about it or minds not having it, but I don't want him to say I can keep it. I want it to be something from his room that's in my room. Which it is.

So why am I annoyed with my T? I'm annoyed with him for not asking me about it, for not mentioning it, for most probably forgetting about it. And I don't know why. I have two theories so far: either I'm annoyed because he's acting like it doesn't matter and I feel he's invalidating or devaluing it, or I'm annoyed because he's treating the toy like my parents treated me by not caring about it or missing it. I would love to hear any insight anyone else can offer.