If at all possible, I would see a therapist. I think that they could direct you in a different manner away from all these old hurtful feelings. You have to let go of the anger and resentment not for their good but for yours.
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Bipolar I, Depression, GAD Meds: Zoloft, Zyprexa, Ritalin
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