I've been so depressed, I've been just laying in bed for a week, doing nothing but wishing I didn't have to exist. Don't seem to be able to see any light anymore, any hope. I feel sorry because of my son. He shouldn't have to live like this. I don't know how I'm going to force myself up to do some dishes and laundry and find the strength to get to the store. It's been dark and rainy for a week. I have no car, no friends, no life.. I'm so tired of being all alone. My son tries to make me feel better. He says "you have me!", he's right, but it's not the same as another adult, a friend, to encourage me, to share life with. I know why I have no one. I'm not able to be fun, interesting, and all I am is needy and depressing whenever I get the few people on the phone to talk to that I have. They never call me, or follow through on their ideas of doing something with me. I don't want to be so alone anymore. I've tried to feel better, by watching inspirational videos, nothing is helping. I'm getting old, I'm alone, I'm tired, and I feel like giving up and I cant. My life is hopeless. I have nothing but failures to look at. Sorry for the long vent, but I haven't had anyone to talk to in a long time. If anyone would be so kind as to offer a pm, someone to talk to, to help me get through this, I would appreciate it so much. Thank you. Hugs to all others who are feeling so low. I'm just pathetic right now though, I have no desire to get up. I want a better life for my son, and for me to have something to offer the world, and I feel I cant even get up and clean up and make a meal. I've had this strange headache for weeks. I tried cipralex at a low dose and i cant handle the side effects, maybe that's what is triggering this tired exhausted feeling, adn why I'm crying my eyes out at times. I quit it after 5 days, I had swollen eyes and itchiness and trembling twitchy muscles in my face. I definitely didn't like that, and I was feeling like a zombie. But now I'm more depressed