I'm lost in my head. I don't feel like there is anything I can do. I want to just curl up in a ball and cry. I hate being like this. I'm ruminating on things that I shouldn't care about. I saw my mother because I couldn't just walk away we talked for a while about her as always. I feel like she's blaming me for her cancer again and the resulting surgery she's having in a few weeks. I'm lost in these thoughts, and they are feeding my depression. I don't know what to do. I just needed to get it out and the depression is my primary problem. Need to cry.

Tig