My MH team came to see me today. They're only there because of the psychosis. I'll be seeing my psychiatrist next month. I haven't told my team but I gave up fighting against the psychosis. I quit. It's obvious I was meant to tip over the edge. To top it off I feel like utter S**t. I've no interest in life. I've done nothing productive all day. What's the point? Life doesn't get better for me. More stuff just goes wrong than good stuff. And I know a lot of this is the depression talking. But I don't want to fight it anymore. I'd rather let it engulf me because I was meant to end up like this. Broken, confused and in the eyes of others 'a complete and utter freak'.