Hi TJ, I'd say that it'd be only natural to be a bit scared of the up-coming trauma work your T has planned. Afterall it can be really intensive, really hard, and take you to places you probably don't want to go. But I think you're getting that throughout that it's also going to be helping you with so many of the thoughts/feelings/emotions which have probably been having a real impact/are having a real impact on your life? So looking forward to a "new beginning" as you're going through/come through this, right?! And getting the real support you need at last!!
And going through/coming through what you've already been through, for so long, if that isn't real strength you've shown I don't know what is!!! You have got so much about you to come through/go through this!! OK you might not see it for yourself all the time, but it's absolutely there!! And any support you need, any support we/I can give you.......well you know where to come
And really glad today is a good day for you!!! You SO deserve it!!
But of course if that changes..........you know where to come!!
Alison