Hi az_tc91. I can appreciate the lack of self esteem issue. I was raised with a very strong work ethic, went to law school and worked as an attorney. Now my depression is so bad that I can't even work. My depression itself has really impacted my self esteem - - kind of like I feel if I were a better person maybe my depression wouldn't be so bad. But I know I'm a good person, and it's not my fault I'm depressed. I also feel like a loser because the weather here is so beautiful now but, because of my depression, I don't feel like doing anything outside unless maybe it's with my husband.

Sorry for going off on my own tangent there. Hope things will improve for you.