lady D thank you so much, that is what i need now, a friend to lean on and to talk to. I have just gotten off the phone with my friends roomate. he is a dear friend of mine we will call him R. R kept telling me that i can't blame myself. Its better to hear it from someone who was close to S and not my parents

<font color=red> It's hard being a snowflake in a world of Cheerios!</font color=red>