I wish I had some magic wand I could wave over you, LearningMe. Any one of the shocks you've experienced, by itself, could send a person reeling. To have all of this heaped upon you all at once is more than anyone should have to bear.

I think the main thing here is going to be to acknowledge the gravity of your circumstances & do whatever you can to take care of yourself. You may want to find another T as soon as possible. If you're a religious person, perhaps your clergy or someone else connected to a church could be supportive. If there its some kind of support group you could join, this might be helpful. And then, of course, there are medications if you're not already on some. If you are, keep in mind that this may cause a need for some adjustments to be made.

It is, of course, not possible for me to know what you're going to need to weather this period in your life. All I can offer is my sincere condolences & my encouragement to recognize & acknowledge the trauma you've undergone & to take care of yourself accordingly. And keep posting here on PC or in a journal, perhaps. Pour your heart out, if you want to. Writing about it can help.