my last post was just the other day but today isn't any better. all I want to to is run and disappear, just to get away from my chaotic life in which is just slowly driving me insane. I have shut out people and I chose to keep it that way because I feel anything I touch, dies. I just want to wake up tomorrow happy but I know I won't. I need a break soon or I honestly have no clue what I'm going to do...