A huge attributor to my NO self esteem is this:

See, for years, i tried to look like Dennis Wolf (Google images if don't know him) or someone similar. Yet, in spite of my efforts, I never could attain anything remotely "close" to this

In addition, I find myself comparing me to all other males...and I feel I do not measure up...so inadequate, insecure, etc....due to lack of muscles.......