I went two years free of SI. I went thru a scary situation about a month and a half ago, then a couple weeks later I started to feel like it was my fault and I SI'd. Then a week later I SI'd again. I have been fighting the urges since. Last week was the first week that I went almost every day without the urge. Sunday and Monday I caught myself looking at and tracing my scars. Today the urge is back. I hate that I screw up and fell back into old habits.